Indulgence

The moments of exhilaration, so ephemeral,
 but the adrenaline rush, it's so damn real,  
 I mean to pull back, may be rush a little slower,    
 But it keeps drowning me, deeper and deeper,   

It engulfs me to the core, almost takes over, 
  Makes me do all the things, probably I would never, 
  How long could it last anyway, it has to end, 
  I am in control here, I almost pretend,     

How do I escape this and alleviate the loss,
  Is it even worth all the convoluted chaos,  
  NO is the answer, don't even take a chance,  
  I convince myself to take a strong stance,   

I shove it away, forever, in an imperfect ending,
 Finally, isn't this a better sense prevailing, 
 but it hits back, again, with a vehement vengeance,  
 It’s sinful and consuming, it's Indulgence…